Friday, February 19, 2010

Friends in low places

As my diabetes has become more controlled over the past week (average blood sugar level of 320 is down to 160) it has also become more visible. Friends I've had for months are suddenly asking "wait, did you just inject yourself?" and people who always saw my diabetes as "no big deal" are beginning to see that it is, in fact, a big deal. I'm unsure of how I feel about this. In a way it's nice to know that I'm a little more out in the open about my problems, but on the other hand it makes my disease feel just that--> out in the open. I also had an experience today that I have never had in any non-hospital related setting, a stranger asked me if I was diabetic.
I had just finished testing my sugars in a theater before the beginning of Shutter Island (decent movie f.y.i.) and the man next to me asks "hey are you a type one or type two diabetic?" This is the point where I instantly regretted testing my sugars in public, and started to feel hyper self conscious about whether or not this man believed I "did this to myself." Surprisingly though, after a halfhearted smile and an admission of "type one," he quick turned to his girlfriend and said "see she's type one too!" She immediately perked up to tell me about her pump and a quick discussion of CGM's started up. Suddenly I didn't feel so different or alone, and I was grateful that I had tested, right there in my theater seat.
This week has been hard, but knowing that I have a community of support and resources, along with some well timed strangers has made me realize that I'm not alone. I have some friends in low places, as well as the high places... and all those numbers in between.

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